Today is the 11th day of Ramadan, a sacred fasting month, a special spiritual occasion to reconnect with Allah, to visit family, to do some social work, to redefine religion's basics, to worship God, to thank him and ask him for forgiveness. For some, it's the occasion to remember that they're actually Muslims :)
Ramadan this year is different for me, I decided to take some serious decisions, to repair the damage my soul suffered from this past few years, or let's say this year specifically. Generally and in a religious aspect, I can say that am a girl who knows the different between wrong things and rights ones, and during this past few years I've been making some very big sins. Guess it time for a Tawba !
What comforts me though is that at least, I've always known my mistakes, what I should work on, and the things I must let go of, in order to become a better muslimah and a better person who has a very good relationship with Allah.
So this Ramadan came as the month full of spirituals, shaytan is no longer here. The general ambiance actually helps a lot, and it's from Allah's mercy to his slaves that he gave us this month each year so that we can : recharge our Iman, remember Allah, why we're here, do some good, help people and work on its relation with its creator.
Ramadan is sort of a laboratory, you get the chance to test your self, like; the ambiance is just perfect, and the heaven's doors are open, everybody goes to Masjid, everybody is fasting and getting closer to Allah, by praying in time, being good to people ... and so on. So in this month you can actually work on your self so that you can become a better believer a better muslim, everything is here and ready, all it takes is you to have the courage and the will to take some serious decision concerning your general behavior in order to work on the religious aspect of your soul and Allah will eventually help you.
By experience, as Ramadan started, first thing I decided is to be more obedient to my parents, to listen to papa and help my mama :D and it worked pretty well, second, I decided that I'll be visiting my family more often, and this is something that the Prophet (pbuh) asked us to do. And after that comes doing my prayers in time, praying Taraweeh every night, try not to lie, not to talk behind people's back, not to laugh about silly thing, listen to less music, less useless chat, read some Quran, read some interesting books ...
The main difference I noticed as I've been trying to do all this, is that I had a strange feeling called "Serenity" I've never felt it before, I mean you can feel like in a peaceful state of mind or something but Serenity- Sakina, comes only with Allah's grace. I am more happier, I fell energetic and willing to do a lot of things, I feel the presence of God, I feel how he hears my prayers, how he's accepting my Istighfar and so on.
Speaking of prayers, before I got in the new Ramadan System, it was pretty much hard for me to pray Allah, I was like : well am no good muslim how can I pray Allah, and expecting him to answer my prayers !? But like now Hamdulilah, thank god, I pray whenever I want, I pray for anything and everything and am sure deep in my heart that Allah will answer my prayers and that he's hearing them. I can see Allah's grace all around me in whatever I do everyday, like am surrounded by its halo allhamdulilah :)
And one last thing, as I've been reading DeVon Franklin's book "Produced bu Faith" there's a part where he came to a conclusion and he says :
"To get where you wanna go, you have to become the person God wants you to be first"
And its true. Because as am working on my faith, am actually becoming the person Allah created to be, and automatically I can see how I got more confident in Allah's plan for me and that he'll direct me to the right path so that I can arrive where I want. Just during this few days I experienced Allah's presence and how many things were easier and I came to solutions to many problems related directly to either short or long term projects and future .. Alhamdulilah :))
Be in the best spiritual state of mind, and get closer to your creator it's Ramadan, a chance per year don't miss it, you never know f you'll live for another Ramadan to come or not :)
Peace be upon you all..
|I just wanna say THANK YOU Mom for the extra effort you do in Ramadan ♥♥|